A date which will (hopefully) live in infamy

I’m going to drop a bomb on Pearl Harbor day.

I’ve got a faint line on a First Response Early Result test and a positive on a digital test.

I’ve got no early symptoms.

But I’ve got a first beta of 58 at 13 dpiui with a repeat set for Thursday. (Number on the same day last pg was 25.)

That is all of which I am certain. But I will also remind you that this is exactly how things started out last time: faint line, positive digital, no symptoms.

So I am dubious and it remains to be seen whether this will work. I am engaging in a bit of denial to get me through the coming weeks and months.

But, all the same, I’m very grateful to take this step forward. Even though I’m now in the position of leaving several others behind.

I have an ultrasound scheduled for December 20, which will be just shy of 6 weeks and perhaps a little early to see a heartbeat, but we’ll see. That’s when The RE wanted to see me, though, and their schedule is kind of tight the last couple weeks of the month because of all the holidays.

The stakes are high — higher than they’ve ever been — and I’m either going to end up with another child come August or another loss and possibly the end of our journey. Not much middle ground here.


10 Responses to A date which will (hopefully) live in infamy

  1. Heather says:

    Wishing nothing but the best from here on out.

  2. Beth says:

    Best of luck, good wishes, happy mojo, good juju, I got it all working for you.
    I have NEVER wanted anyone to have a baby more than you guys!

  3. Marcie says:

    CONGRATULATIONS again!!!! Even my sister whom you don’t know is thrilled for you. I hate to point out the obvious but most pregnancies start out with a faint line and a positive digital. That’s not a bad thing. It’s a wonderful fantastic amazing thing. I understand your hesitation to celebrate, but there are many MANY people celebrating for you right now. Positive Postive thoughts and best wishes on the next 9 months.

  4. Alex says:

    See there is something to having your husband int he room. OR at least the building!! Congrats and only good wishes for a positive outcome.

  5. Serenity says:

    I want to scream congratulations but I know the need for denial, at least for a little while. Fingers tightly crossed.


  6. Nicole says:

    I really hope that everything is smooth sailing for you the rest of the way. You deserve it! Hugs and prayers

  7. kdulong says:

    So happy for you and hoping the rest is all gravy baby!

  8. Brandy says:

    I’m doing a quiet little happy dance of joy and wishing the VERY best for you.

  9. doreen says:

    Sending all the best vibes I possibly can!

  10. Rach says:

    Think positive! Yes I know it’s hard to do after loss [oh believe me I know – 8 and counting] but right now you’re pregnant concentrate on that. What will be will be and you can’t predict the future or change tomorrow, so you just have to revel in what you know NOW, which is that you’re up the duff! Woohoo!!



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